HCG Mix up

So they accidentally called in another prescription for HCG for me this month when I still have it from last month since I was told not to trigger.

If I would have known they were going to do that, I would have triggered last month against the doc's advice.  Sure, it would have been super risky but I'm getting desperate at this point!

After I got off the phone w/ the pharmacy about the HCG I was like crap! I should have just told them to send it so I would have extra and I could do it on my own if the situation comes up again.  I like to think that I can think quick on my toes...but not this time!

CD4 Doc Appt

The medicine did its job! Hallelujah! The bad news is that my lining is still 8mm so I'll probably bleed for 3 or so more days.  Please make it stop!

When he pulled the ultrasound probe thing out of me, it had a huge clot on it! LOL I just acted like I didn't see it.

I'll start Clomid 75mg tomorrow and return to the doctor on CD13 to see how it worked.

CD3

I go in tomorrow morning for an ultrasound to make sure Aygestin did its job and I'll start Clomid 75mg and then do an HSG trigger if the Clomid works, which I'm pretty sure it will.

I can't believe they're going to do an ultrasound with me still bleeding!! Ugh, I'm going to be so self conscious.  I think I'll take some wet wipes with me and ask to use the bathroom beforehand.

My pelvis still hurts today.  I have stuff I need to get done around the house but all I want to do is lay around.

CD2

TMI warning.

The last 3 days I've had really bad pelvic pain, constant stabbing pain. Friday I was really tired all day long so I knew something was about to happen.  Yesterday AF arrived but it was light like expected by the doctor.  Last night at 5am I woke up to blood running down my leg.  Half dollar size clot came out and awful pain.  Today I'm still in pain and still having clots, though not as big.

I really really really do not want to be on Aygestin ever again.  I've never felt like this before.  The only thing that would make this worse if is I was having super heavy bleeding along with the clots.

I'll call the doctor tomorrow and let him know AF arrived and find out when I'll need to go in for an appointment.

Ugh, is this over yet?

Ovulation?

I still have a headache, not a severe one but enough to bother me.  Also, I've been having a lot of twinges and pains on the sides of my abdomen as well as mild low back pain.  Overall I just feel crampy.  OPK this morning was negative so my LH surge definitely was yesterday.  My BBT went up today so if it goes back down tomorrow I'll know that I'm done ovulating.  I'm really really hoping this is it! I'll be testing around July 24th.  The Hubs birthday is the 21st so I might chance it and test early to give him the ultimate birthday present! Unless I have other super crazy symptoms, I won't post again until I test :)  Wish me luck!

CD14.3

I've been horrible at updating.  Honestly I've been horrible at updating everything except Twitter recently.

Short recap:  CD5-9 I took 50mg of Clomid in hopes of producing good size follicles so I could inject HCG.  I went to the doctor yesterday for my CD13 check and no big follicles.  They were all under 10mm.  Yesterday I started 100mg of Clomid.  My doctor used the analogy "your water isn't boiling yet.  I'll keep turning up the heat until it does" ha!   I return to the doctor on CD21 for a follicle and mucus check again.  Lets pray for some big ones so I can trigger!

Before my appointment yesterday, I was instructed to have sex right before the appointment.  The Hubs does not do well with scheduled sex and he doesn't like the pressure.  I decided to not tell him and just try to be sneaky and spontaneous with waking him up with sex yesterday morning.  Here is an excerpt from my personal blog to share how my morning went.  Beware of the strong language:

Last night I told The Hubs to make sure the alarm is set early enough for us to have sex in the morning.  I didn't tell him that it was doctor's orders...I just made it sound all exciting and stuff.  I even used the words "do you want to wake up with your dick in my mouth" lmfao  We had this discussion about how he will need to pee first.

I never hear his alarm clock...I usually wake up when he gets out of bed.  So at 5:43 he gets out of bed.  I remember looking at the clock and thinking wtf he has to be at work at 6.  I hear him in the bathroom so I'm like oh, its ok he's just going pee and then he'll come back in.  Then he lets the dogs out and then he goes to smoke.  WTF I am still at this point thinking ok I know he wouldn't forget our plans.

....and then he starts to put his shoes on and shit hits the fan.

"What about having sex this morning"

"I'm already late for work.  You were suppose to wake me up"

"You know I never hear the alarm! I was waiting on you to go pee!!"

I was on the verge of tears at this point

"What is the big fucking deal?!?

"We HAVE to have sex ok?! We just fucking have to and I wasn't going to tell you.  I was trying to be sneaky but apparently you didn't want to fulfill my needs very badly did you?!

"What do you mean?! What are you talking about"

At this point I'm bawling on the bed and explaining to him the situation.  He's just staring at me like omfg you can't be serious.  He gets on the phone and calls in late to work

Pretty dramatic huh? We are suppose to have sex again before the appointment next week.  I have chosen to just tell him this time to avoid all the drama and tears.

I should probably tell you that fraternal twins run in my family.  My dad is a twin and my great uncles were twins.  The fraternal twin gene is the hereditary one..not identical.  With the use of Clomid, HCG and my family history, I have a pretty high chance of multiples.....well, if the medicine works and my body would cooperate. 

I'll try to be better about posting after my appointment next week :)

CD23.2 ~ Doc Appointment

I guess I was mistaken last month.  Last month I did not produce a follicle like I thought.  There were some small ones, but not big enough ones.  This month I did not ovulate or produce large follicle, just like last month.  The Provera with Actos alone isn't working for me.

This month I will continue on Actos, another week of Provera and then CD5 I'll start Clomid.  I also should be expecting a phone call from a pharmacy to take my insurance information for HCG.  I don't know a whole lot about HCG.  I need to google it and freak myself out. haha

I'm a little disappointed with the outcome of this month, but not surprised.  I knew I didn't ovulate because my temps were flat and my boobs never started hurting.   I'm not even going to post my temps from this month because they're so boring.  They basically stayed between 97.2 and 97.6.

The Hubs and I have had horrible luck the last few months so I just keep telling myself something good has to come soon....maybe that something good will be pregnancy!

CD1.2

AF arrived today and not on a good day.  I called the doc to set up a CD22 appointment but the office is already closed.

My hips and abdomen are killing me and I have way too much crap to do today and tomorrow. Tomorrow is moving day! A lot of drama has come along today but that's not what this blog is about :)

Have a great weekend!

Provera post day 4

Ugh, my hips are killing me.  AF has to be coming soon.  Also, TMI, but I've had wet farts.  Not like stuff coming out, just wet. LOL Yeah, I'm gross but this always happens soon before AF comes to town.

This is moving weekend so I'm really hoping AF holds off until at least Sunday.

CD23~ Doc Appointment

I had a quick visit to see the doctor. Like I predicted, I did not ovulate in April but I did make follicles...makes sense? Nope.
He said that it was strange for that to happen on the 1st cycle of Provera.  So I must be a freak.
I'm doing another round of Provera this month.  If that doesn't work, then on to Clomid.  I may tell him that I want Femara instead of Clomid.  Would that be insulting to him?
Anyway, I'm off to the pharmacy and to wash my car.

CD22

My doctor's appointment is tomorrow and look at this crappy graph I have to present to him:

I mean, seriously, is that the most messed up thing you've ever seen?!


I don't think I ovulated on CD12 like I thought because of the three dips in temperature...unless I'm completely reading it wrong.  Look at that huge spike and huge drop back down on CD16! haha


I have to wake up at 7:30 tomorrow.  I've not been up that early in a long time.  I may be napping afterwards.


In other news, we sold our house! We'll be closing and moving into a rental in 2 weeks.  We'll be in the rental for 7 months then transferring out in December.  Get this....the girl who bought it..she's 8 months pregnant! 


Hope you all had a great weekend and I'll post tomorrow with information about my appointment.

CD17

I've been feeling funky today and yesterday.  I'm blaming it on ovulation though.  Yesterday and today I've felt like I just did a bunch of sit ups.  Yesterday, I guess you can classify it as my ovaries were hurting? I had kind of a jabbing pain just inside of my hip bone.  Today I'm feeling a little nauseous, no appetite and a slight headache.  I'm been a little more tired than normal but it's not a "omg I have to go to sleep right now" kind of feeling. 

This morning my temperature took a huge spike, more than it normally does at this time.  It went from a 97.2 to a 98.8.  I even retook it thinking that maybe I was just too hot under the covers! haha  I know a temperature increase signals the end of ovulation but it was just strange it went up so high. 

I've been listening to two songs over and over again crying like a big baby! The first is Adele's version of Make You Feel My Love.  She does an amazing job of Bob Dylan's song.  It's beautiful, soulful and moving...I love it.  The second is Then by Brad Paisley.  Also, I watched One Tree Hill tonight and cried through most of it...although that show always makes me cry.

My next doc appointment is Monday.  The last few days I've been imaging going in and him doing an ultrasound and mucus check and saying "you're pregnant!".  Then I go into thoughts about how I will tell the Hub and who I will call first. I really need to just stop with those thoughts.  I know I just set myself up for disappointment. 

I have to start focusing on the positive and believe in every little milestone.  According to my temps, it looks like I ovulated this month on just Actos.  That's a positive thing! Also, the Hub's sperm analysis came back and it's completely normal.  That's a positive thing!

Unless I have crazy symptoms this week to post about, I probably won't update again until after my appointment Monday.  Have a great week!

CD13

Well I think I ovulated yesterday.  My temp took a huge drop and went back up today. I never could get a positive ovulation test though.  I guess the doctor will be able to tell when I see him May 3rd.  We had sexy time the day before yesterday and last night.

This morning I woke up not feeling well.  It could be anxiety and stress though.  We're in the middle of selling our house and finding a rental and my husband is up for orders to transfer across the country so we're in the middle of figuring out where we'll be moving to in December.  I'm a little behind in my work and have no motivation to do it so that has been weighing on my mind as well.

Besides...people don't feel sick that soon anyway right?!

CD9 part 2

The last CD9 post was posted around midnight last night and I still had some spotting going on.  Great news! It's now 1:30pm and I've had no spotting since I've woken up.  Wow..this is the first time I've not had stuff coming out in over a month.  It feels a little awkward to not be concerned I'm walking around with a stain on my butt! This means we can get our groove thang on without any objections!
My temperature was back to normal this morning.  It makes me wonder if I had those few days of crazy temperatures because I was stressing about the HSG and wasn't getting very restful sleep. 
We should be getting the Hub's latest sperm analysis results this week.  I'm not concerned that it will come back abnormal but it would be nice to not hold 100% of the blame for infertility.  I'm mean right? :)

HSG

It's my CD6 and I had an HSG this afternoon.

I'm not going to sugar coat it....it hurt like total hell.  Here's what happened

I arrive and get registered and everything.  The nurse takes me back to a typical looking x-ray room where I changed into a gown but only had to get undressed from the waste down.  The radiology tech took a quick preliminary x-ray before the doctor arrived.  A few minutes later the doctor arrived and we chatted a little bit about how I was doing w/ my meds and stuff.  At that point he positioned me at the end of this awful cold hard steel bed.  I had my feet propped up on the edge of the table so that it was similar to being in stirrups.  He injected something into my cervix and that's where the pain began.  It felt like getting shots into your gums when you're about to get a filling.  Those were done three times then he swabbed my cervix with antiseptic and with medication to help prevent infection.  That felt similar to getting a pap smear.  When he enter the catheter used to insert the dye, it burned and stung a little.  At this point, I had to scoot up on the table so that I was under the x-ray machine with the speculum and catheter still inside...that was a little awkward.  He put some of the dye into my uterus and then I had to semi-turn to the right and he put more dye in and then I turned to my left where more dye went it.  When I was facing the right...it hurt horribly.  I was almost in tears but I held it back and kept taking deep breaths.  It was a sharp, cramping, throbbing, burning kind of pain.  I was told by people who've had the procedure that it feels like menstrual cramps..but that is a huge lie.  It is WAY worse than that.  Then the doctor pulled the catheter and speculum out which wasn't bad because my focus was on the pain in my uterus area.  The dye was pouring out of me.  I felt like I was peeing on the table.  Driving home I felt great and about an hour later I started having mild pain.  You know that dull ache you get when you leave a tampon in too long? That's what I felt like.  I'm 9 hours post procedure and I'm feeling pretty good.  I really only had dye leakage for about 4 hours afterwards and it wasn't anything a pantiliner couldn't handle. 

Last night I took 600mg of ibuprofen, at 7am this morning I took 800mg and another 800mg about an hour before the HSG was done.  I also ate a decent lunch 6in turkey from Subway.  This is what I was instructed to do by the doctor and I really think it helped a lot. 

The positive is that the procedure was super quick.  Also, I had no blockage or abnormalities.  Hopefully the dye "cleaned out the cobwebs" and I get pregnant soon!  The funny thing....my left fallopian tube is curled! It has one loop right in the middle.  Doc assured me that it's normal and doenst cause problems but to me it seems like it would make it harder for the little guys to get to the egg.  I need to google it and see just how loopy I am compared to the rest of the world :)

I plan to buy some ovulation tests this weekend and start testing.  I'm curious to know if I am going to ovulate with just taking Actos.

Was the HSG as bad as I planned it in my head? Yes, most definitely and I hope I never have to go through that again!

Introduction!

Hello Everyone!  First of all, thank you advance for all of your support, love, prayers and compassion.  As you may know, it means a lot to fellow PCOSers trying to start a family.

I am a 27 year old military wife.  I met my husband in July 2007, got engaged November 2008 and married September 2009. 

In March 2008, the Hub and I started talking about the fact that we've never used birth control and what if I was to get pregnant?  Are we ready for a child? Do we want to try to have a child?  The answer was yes. We knew were were going to be married at some point so why wait?  Taking into consideration that I've my monthly aunt Ruby Flo hadn't come to town in several months, I decided I should probably see a doctor about it. 

April 2008 I was officially diagnosed with PCOS by blood work and transvaginal ultrasound.  When my doctor was delivering this news to me, it didn't really affect me because I had no clue what it was.  I've never heard of it before.  I was under the impression it was something that I would just take some medicine for and be done with it.  That evening I researched the awful "disease" and sat at my laptop in shock.  Does this mean I'm infertile? Does this mean I will never have a child of my own? How in the world are we suppose to avoid infertility treatment?

My PCP started me on Metformin 1000mg per day.  It made me super sick but I kept taking it because I thought it was the only way.  After 3 weeks of complete misery, I was told that I could cut the pills in half and take them sporadically throughout the day to see if I could tolerate them better.  No such luck.  I never grew a tolerance to the Metformin and suffered through it for several months even after it was regulating my cycle.

I had my first appointment with a reproductive endocrinologist in April 2009.  He started me on Prometrium to jump start my cycle then I took Clomid 50mg on cycle days 5-9.  I was a raging ball of hormones! Wow was I mean and I'm surprised I wasn't served divorced papers! I also did another round of Clomid in May. By this time I was in full wedding planning mode, stressed out to the max and decided it was a waste of time and money to undergo fertility during those months.  In July 2009 the Hub had a sperm analysis that had normal results.

I went back to the RE in November 2009 and we again did a Clomid cycle with no results.  Clomid made my temperatures good and showed that I ovulated but I could never get an ovulation test to read positive.  Every month that I had went in to see this physician, I felt like he wasn't listening to me and when I would ask him about taking a different medicine than Metformin, he would tell me "I'm not here to make you miserable.  I'm here to get you pregnant".  I've specifically asked him about Actos and Femara and got run-around answers.  Also, by this time my insurance, BCBS stopped paying for the ultrasounds because I had been diagnosed (insurance only covered it until I was diagnosed).  When I walked out of my November appointment with the RE I was charged $200 and decided there was no way in hell we could afford to pay that every month, especially since I was on the verge of quitting my job.

March 2010 rolls around and I began coverage under Tricare Prime and was due for pap smear. I made an appointment with a base doctor who referred me to a fertility doctor who accepts Tricare.  It actually worked out perfectly because it was a physician I had wanted to be referred to. 

My first appointment with the new doctor was April 1, 2010.  He and all of the office staff was amazing.  He asked lots of questions and did lots more tests than the previous doctor did.  He told me the game plan for the upcoming few months and I left his office feeling much more confident that I ever had with the previous physician.  He gave me a prescription for Actos 15mg daily and Provera 10mg x7 days and instructed me to start charting my temperatures. 

April 11 was CD1.  I've been scheduled for an HSG on April 16 but I'm still having lots of bleeding.  Hopefully it stops by Friday and I won't have to reschedule the HSG.  Also, the Hub will be dropping off a sperm sample Friday to test for strict morphology as that wasn't done last year.  He's quite excited about cumming in a cup again :)

I will be returning to the doctor on CD22 to have my progesterone tested and to go over the sperm analysis. 

Now that you've been completely updated, I hope you follow along on my journey.  I'm praying it's a short one.

I'm quite nervous about the HSG.  I've heard mixed feelings about it so we'll see.  I'll post after the procedure.