Final Update

AF came with a vengeance Saturday but today there has been no flow at all yet....weird for me to only have a 2 day period.  Oh well, I'm not complaining!

I called my RE on Friday to get suggestions for a birth control pill for and he recommended generic brand Yasmin.  It had a mid-level of estrogen to help with PCOS symptoms but still shouldn't make me gain even more weight than I have.  Good news is that he is calling it into my pharmacy so I can cancel that GYN appointment I made for next month.  He also said that I have a good chance of ovulating on my own for a few months after stopping the pills when I've been on them for a few months.

I've been reading online that the worst pills to miss taking are during the 1st and 3rd week and typically when girls get pregnant while on the pill it's because they miss pills during these weeks.  Since I'm not taking these pills to prevent pregnancy, but to get my PCOS symptoms under control, I'm going to purposely skip pills during the months I know I'll be around my husband.

Peace, love, health and happiness to all!

11dpo ~ The End

So...I was pretty excited about my temperatures and the way I was feeling the last couple days, despite the fact that I was convinced nothing was going to happen this month.

Then yesterday my temp dropped, just like it did at 10dpo last month and then today took a nosedive.  Even though I stocked up on Dollar Tree tests, I'm not even going to bother testing unless AF doesn't show up by Monday.

Also, we are going to be super busy the rest of the year with my husband's promotion and moving halfway across the country.  I'm really not going to the time or mental state to bother with temping and doctor appointments, etc.  In addition, starting December 5 my husband will be away for 3 months for training and obviously we can't do any babymaking then.  I've considered doing a round of soy in September just because it's cheap and doesn't require doc visits, but I'm not totally set on it yet.

I need to call my GYN and get an appointment to get put on birth control.  I have heard of PCOSers getting pregnant after coming off birth control because your hormones are back in check, so let's pray that happens to me.

If I get a surprise BFP I'll let you all know but until then, fairwell till Spring 2011

HCG Post Day 4

I feel ok today, just my stomach muscles hurt, like I've done a bunch of sit up.  This happens to me every month so I'm not thinking too much into it.  I still have a headache but it's pretty mild compared to what I've been dealing with.  My temps are still all over the place.  I got another + OPK today.  Since I already have quite a few of them, I decided that I would just use them to test out the trigger.  I was hoping my temp would spike today so I can't stop obsessing over it but no such luck.

Something strange...I went to bed with my belly button hurting a little and I ended up having a dream that I had an infection in my belly button where I use to have it pierced (10 years ago).  When I woke up my belly button hurt worse than when I went to bed.  LOL

I shouldn't even be thinking about this because I know pregnancy this month is a long shot....but I've decided that I will tell my husband on our 1st year anniversary which is Sept 4.  Although, I'll find out about a week prior so let's see if I can hold it in that long.

Until next time....

HCG Post Day 3

So....I was just informed that the OPK's I've been doing are pointless.  Ha! Apparently those tests pick up on LH and HCG and since I have HCG in my system, well then they will obviously be positive.  But I will tell you that the one I took today was only barely positive.

I feel somewhat better.  I still have a headache and I'm tired but most everything else is gone.  I can also cry at the drop of a hat.

I'm debating on whether I want to go get some Dollar Tree tests and test out the HCG or just wait it out normally.  I should probably just wait so I'm not obsessing so much.

HCG Post Day 2

Wow...beginning yesterday late afternoon I began feeling like total crap, like I was coming down with strep throat.  Horrible headache, mild nausea, body aches, mild sore throat, SO tired, feel feverish but not running a temp.  I've not had any twinges or cramping or any kind of pain in my pelvic area.  My stomach is a little bruised where I the shot went in but it doesn't really bother me.

Today I still feel bad but not as bad as yesterday.  I think I'd be a lot better if this headache would go away.  I'm sure being out in the 103 degree weather most of today didn't help my headache at all.

I got a strong positive yesterday afternoon and another positive today, though not as strong.  I told The Hubs last night he was off the hook but since I got another positive today I have to take back my statement.  He has been super super busy at work and now I'm starting to get pulled into it so timing has been horrible but we've managed to pull it off.  Maybe I'll just be so busy the next couple weeks that I won't drive myself crazy with waiting until I can test.

Hope everyone is having a good weekend!

HCG Post Day 1

Yesterday evening at about 7 I felt like something was going on down there, not too much pain or even uncomfortable.  I was stuck sitting at one of my husband's co-worker's house so I couldn't really dote on it like I would have if I was home.

This morning I woke up feeling perfectly fine and about 30 or so minutes ago I started feeling somewhat feverish so I knew I was having an LH surge.  Sure enough, I just took an OPK and it was positive.  We'll have sexy time again tonight, a quickie on Saturday afternoon and I told my husband I'll leave him alone for the month after that.  He's been super busy at work with crazy hours and will be for the next 3-4 weeks.

Prayers this works!

Checking my Work

I just took an OPK and it was negative but a pregnancy test was a very faint positive (so that's what it looks like!! haha).  So I guess I injected the HCG correctly according to the pregnancy test but I was under the impression that an OPK was be positive right away as well.

I dunno...maybe I'll take one tonight before sexy time and see what happens.

1:40pm ~ HCG Injected

I was so nervous...holy crap.  I don't remember breathing the whole time I was mixing the stuff.  I don't think I got a full cc injected but I know that I got all of the mixed medicine out of the bottle.

Apparently if I go take an OPK it should be positive.  If I take a pregnancy test it will be positive.  I almost want to take a pregnancy test just so I know what a positive looks like. LOL

My belly is still a little sore where the needle went it.  I'll probably freaking bruise.  If I have to do injectivbles next month I should probably get use to it right?

CD13 ~ Doc Appointment

To sum it up...as soon as I got in my car I was in tears.

First of all we got off on the wrong foot because we had too much time between when we had sex and the post coital exam.  The window is 4 hours and and we were about 8 hours.  We were actually lucky to get any sex in at all last night because his work schedule is hella messed up.  So he does a mucus check and it's thick and cloudy....not good.  So then he does an ultrasound and says "it looks like you've already ovulated" WTF?!?!  We planned for him to call me when my bloodwork came back to confirm ovulation and would base that around whether I would trigger or not.

I just got the call......

My bloodwork confirmed that I have NOT ovulated and he also told me that I have one 18mm follicle on the left (he probably told me about the follicle during the exam but I was so focused on the word "ovulated" that I blanked everything else out at that moment).  Basically my body hated the Clomid at 75mg and messed up my mucus.  The plan is for me to go ahead and trigger today, have sexy time tonight and tomorrow night (and I'm throwing in another night for good measure) and pray for a miracle.  If I do not have AF by the 30th, then I'll go in for a pregnancy and progesterone test.  If negative then we are doing injectibles next month (covered by Tricare thank you government!) I have zero knowledge about injectibles.  Apparently it involves a lot of doctor visits and shots.  Wonderful.  If that doesn't work my only next option would be IUI and I found out today that Tricare will not cover any of it, no ultrasounds, no medicine, nothing but the doc does do a discount on the 1st ultrasound, no charge for the exam and no charge for any further ultrasounds.  All together, we'd have to pay about $550 to have IUI done.

I need to put my Google skills to work and find out about injectibles.

I'll be giving myself this trigger w/in the next hour...I'm scared shitless to do it to myself and my husband can't stand the sight of needles.  I'm on my own.  I'll post later about how the shot goes.

What a day!

CD6

I've been feeling really good the last couple days, very energetic.  I have this huge desire to lose weight, more of a desire than ever.  My problem is that I hate sweating and I'm so out of shape so I get tired so easily so I'm like if I can't do this longer than 10 minutes than it's not worth it.  Yeah, I know, horrible attitude.  I found a website that has a beginners for those who are out of shape treadmill schedule that I started today.  The 1st week just consists of walking 3-4mph for 30 minutes.  I can totally handle that!  My problem is that I get bored...fast.  I get bored with just music so I tried an audiobook today and that didn't help.  I tried playing a game on my phone but then I just lose my footing and just about trip.  My solution is to have a TV in front on the treadmill.  In this crappy rental house we are in right now, the only place to put the treadmill is the garage where there isn't a cable outlet.  I'm thinking about moving our spare TV and the spare DVD player out there.  What would really help is if I get a TV series season on DVD that I really want to see but limit myself to only being able to watch it if I'm on the treadmill.  My theory is that I will want to be on the treadmill more just to watch the show.  It's sad that I have to trick myself like that.  Hopefully once the temperature gets better (and not the temp of the surface of the sun) I can walk/jog outside and kill some of the boredom.

I called the pharmacy back today and schedule delivery for that HCG that was called in mistakenly the other day.  Something was just nagging me about it.

No awful side effects from the Clomid 75mg yet.  The only thing I've noticed is that I pee more often.

In go back to the doctor in a week.  I'm ready for it!

HCG Mix up

So they accidentally called in another prescription for HCG for me this month when I still have it from last month since I was told not to trigger.

If I would have known they were going to do that, I would have triggered last month against the doc's advice.  Sure, it would have been super risky but I'm getting desperate at this point!

After I got off the phone w/ the pharmacy about the HCG I was like crap! I should have just told them to send it so I would have extra and I could do it on my own if the situation comes up again.  I like to think that I can think quick on my toes...but not this time!

CD4 Doc Appt

The medicine did its job! Hallelujah! The bad news is that my lining is still 8mm so I'll probably bleed for 3 or so more days.  Please make it stop!

When he pulled the ultrasound probe thing out of me, it had a huge clot on it! LOL I just acted like I didn't see it.

I'll start Clomid 75mg tomorrow and return to the doctor on CD13 to see how it worked.

CD3

I go in tomorrow morning for an ultrasound to make sure Aygestin did its job and I'll start Clomid 75mg and then do an HSG trigger if the Clomid works, which I'm pretty sure it will.

I can't believe they're going to do an ultrasound with me still bleeding!! Ugh, I'm going to be so self conscious.  I think I'll take some wet wipes with me and ask to use the bathroom beforehand.

My pelvis still hurts today.  I have stuff I need to get done around the house but all I want to do is lay around.

Thoughts

I can't believe it's August already.  My husband is military and we're transferring soon....like as in November/December soon.

I've decided that if I'm not pregnant by the time we move, that I will take my time finding a new RE and do this without a doctor and see how it goes.  With the knowledge of a great new far away friend, I've found out that you can rub progesterone cream on yourself to get a period (so I won't need the Provera or Prometrium) and I can also take soy isoflavones (so I won't need Clomid).  Both of these can be bought at the health food store or online super cheap.  I've been reading up on the soy and a lot of people have success with it and you don't get the awful side effects like you do with Clomid.  I think it will be worth a try, especially since I know I won't be able to see a new RE right away.

Because of my temps and the OPK in July, I know I ovulated but just because you ovulate doesn't necessary mean the follicles break up and the egg(s) is released. Basically my hormone level changed but my ovaries didn't do their job.  Because of all this awful pain I've been having with Aygestin, I don't think my follicles broke open.  Since my ovaries didn't do their job, I really think I'm going to need the HCG shot this month.

My husband has 2 children with two different women.  ( I know, what a playa! One was a big mistake that happened in high school with a girlfriend and the other was with a wife a few years later).  Anyway, both of these kids were conceived in August.  The joke is that his fertile month is August.  Hopefully this is true 13 years later.

I had to make a run to Walgreens tonight to get some super duper huge pads so that I don't ruin my sheets! I proudly showed them to my husband...he wasn't impressed.

CD2

TMI warning.

The last 3 days I've had really bad pelvic pain, constant stabbing pain. Friday I was really tired all day long so I knew something was about to happen.  Yesterday AF arrived but it was light like expected by the doctor.  Last night at 5am I woke up to blood running down my leg.  Half dollar size clot came out and awful pain.  Today I'm still in pain and still having clots, though not as big.

I really really really do not want to be on Aygestin ever again.  I've never felt like this before.  The only thing that would make this worse if is I was having super heavy bleeding along with the clots.

I'll call the doctor tomorrow and let him know AF arrived and find out when I'll need to go in for an appointment.

Ugh, is this over yet?

Aygestin Day 7

I called the doc today about the spotting and the pain.  I was told that the pain was because I had so many follicles.  I was instructed to stop the Aygestin and to call on CD1 which should be in a few days.  Luckily it will be a light one because my lining wasn't very thick.

Looks like the process is going to start back up again quicker than I planned.

Aygestin Day 6

I've been on Aygestin for six days and I'm still spotting.  I'm pretty sure he told me I would spot for maybe 2 days so I'm wondering wtf is up.  The first four days of being on this medicine was horrible.  My pelvis area hurt constantly, not cramps, but like a stabbing, sharp constant pain.  It was awful.  I've not noticed any mood changes and The Hubs hasn't complained about my attitude at all.  Other than the spotting and the initial pain, I've not had any side effects at all.

It's been nice to not have to worry about taking my temperature in the mornings but at the same time I kind of miss it.  I like knowing my body rhythm but I know while on this medicine I'm not going to have a rhythm.

So overall today I'm feeling pretty good.  I might call the doc tomorrow and find out whats up with this spotting. It's really annoying.

14dpo

My temp dropped to coverline today...right on time.  I'm not even going to waste a test.

I took my first Aygestin pill this morning.  Figured I should go ahead so I don't have to deal with 2 periods, only one within the next 3 weeks.

I'll be on this medicine for 21 days and during that time I probably won't have anything to talk about, unless I have an emotional breakdown which is bound to happen sometime soon.  I've heard the mood swings on this medicine are super awful.  I may be divorced by the time it's all over :)

Enjoy the rest of your July and I'll see you back in August and we'll do this shit again!

13dpo

So last week I had all those symptoms and Saturday I woke up with all gone but 3.  I still pee a lot, my boobs are still hurting and I got some serious saliva.  I've read that excessive saliva is caused by hormone levels changing so that's why it's common in pregnancy....and I know mine have to be going crazy right now.

I tested at 9dpo and 11dpo and got negative tests.  Saturday morning, which was 9dpo, I started spotting so I just figured AF was on the way.  Now the spotting only happens in the evenings and only comes out when I pee.  My temps are still high.  You can see them here.

I think I'll test tomorrow....I've not made up my mind.  I know it will be negative but I really need to make sure before I start taking Aygestin.   Part of me just wants to see if AF comes and part of me just wants to get this month over with and start fresh.

I wish I had an extra $20,000 so I can just go get IVF done and bypass all this drama!

11dpo

I caved and tested yesterday..negative.  I woke up today feeling good...pretty much all symptoms are gone except for sore boobies.  This has all happened to me before and it ended up being cysts...so I'm betting all those follicles I had never broke open on their own.

My temp dropped a little today, from 98.5 yesterday to 98.1 today.  I'm curious to see if AF comes on its own. I'll test again on Wednesday if AF hasn't come and if still negative (like I think it will be) then I'll go ahead and start the Aygestin.  If AF does come, I'll start Aygestin anyway just to make sure all those cysts go away so I can start fresh next month.  I'll be on Aygestin for 21 days then AF should come a few days later.  During those 21 days, I'm taking a break from the TTC stress....no temping, no forums, no google searches...just back to normal life.

Side note, I am super excited for Teen Mom season 2 to start on Tuesday!!

8dpo

Let me whine for a bit

• heartburn started last night.  Off/on today. 
• Hurts when I suck in
• random headaches
• My nipples are sensitive and hurt
• The sides of my boobs hurt
• I have a weird stabbing pain that shoots down to my butthole that lasts for a few seconds.  Ever had someone stab you in the anus?  Yep, that's me
• Peeing more
• Really been wanting plain M&Ms and watermelon...but not together
• Hurts if I push on my abdomen in the center and on the left
• Random bouts of nausea but it doesn't last long
• Left lower back has been hurting for 3 days
• A constant weird feeling in my abdomen.  Not really cramps, not really pressure...I don't know how to describe it
• I thought I was ok with hotdogs for dinner last night but when I started cooking them I totally didn't want it anymore.
• I almost passed out in Walmart last night
• Can't get full
• Sore throat for that last few days that lasts all day
• I'm hot all the effing time

This is just all my mind playing tricks on me right? haha  

7dpo

Hello my name is Crazy!! I'm driving myself nuts!! So many questions with no answers!

Will I have an implantation dip?
Will a period come on its own?
Are all the crazy symptoms I'm having because of PMS, pregnancy or because all those cysts are still in there?

I have a 3 pack of First Response Early Result.  I'm really tempted to take one in the morning....but I'm scared of it being negative because I tested too early.

Even if it is negative, I have to be happy about the fact that I did ovulate without the help of HCG and if AF comes by itself that will be a huge accomplishment!

The good news in all this....my chart looks good and promising :)

Ovulation?

I still have a headache, not a severe one but enough to bother me.  Also, I've been having a lot of twinges and pains on the sides of my abdomen as well as mild low back pain.  Overall I just feel crampy.  OPK this morning was negative so my LH surge definitely was yesterday.  My BBT went up today so if it goes back down tomorrow I'll know that I'm done ovulating.  I'm really really hoping this is it! I'll be testing around July 24th.  The Hubs birthday is the 21st so I might chance it and test early to give him the ultimate birthday present! Unless I have other super crazy symptoms, I won't post again until I test :)  Wish me luck!

Look What I Got

Last night I went to bed with an awful headache and I was so nauseous.  I had mowed the yard about an hour before so I blamed it on my allergies. I woke up this morning to this!

I'm tempted to call The Hubs and tell him there is an emergency so he'll come home.  We need to do it like rabbits! This makes me feel SO hopeful.  I'm super excited! I am 6 days post my last Clomid pill.  My temps don't mimic this +OPK....well at least I don't think so and I'm too lazy to put all the numbers into Fertility Friend to see what it says.

CD21 Doc Appt

I went in for my CD21 check this morning after taking 100mg Clomid CD13-17. My right ovary had 6 follicles ranging from 14mm to 23mm. My left ovary had one follicle measuring 14mm.
Because I have a history of fraternal twins in my family and so many big follicles, my doc doesn't want me to trigger this month....and even said to use condoms for the next week!! What?! What is a condom?! LOL

If I didn't have to have another prescription of HCG to trigger, I think I would do it on my own.  Sure, there would be a huge chance of sextuplets but I'm sick of waiting! 

The plan is to take 75mg Clomid next month and then trigger. Because we plan to trigger next month I can't trigger this month without another prescription. 

I think I'm going to risk it and just have lots of sexy time and hope to ovulate on my own. Maybe my left ovary will be the one working and I'll end up with one implantation instead of 6! 

Also today he did a mucus check like always after we had sexy time this morning...Doc let me see the microscope slide....very cool!! I could see little spermies swimming around in my mucus!  The count looked good considering the high dose of Clomid I was on.  The idea is that if we drop it to 75mg Clomid more sperm have a chance of survival.


He gave me a prescription for progesterone to take for 21 days then I should start a period 2-3 days later.  Well, that is if I don't get pregnant after we have sex WITHOUT a condom this week! 

CD14.3

I've been horrible at updating.  Honestly I've been horrible at updating everything except Twitter recently.

Short recap:  CD5-9 I took 50mg of Clomid in hopes of producing good size follicles so I could inject HCG.  I went to the doctor yesterday for my CD13 check and no big follicles.  They were all under 10mm.  Yesterday I started 100mg of Clomid.  My doctor used the analogy "your water isn't boiling yet.  I'll keep turning up the heat until it does" ha!   I return to the doctor on CD21 for a follicle and mucus check again.  Lets pray for some big ones so I can trigger!

Before my appointment yesterday, I was instructed to have sex right before the appointment.  The Hubs does not do well with scheduled sex and he doesn't like the pressure.  I decided to not tell him and just try to be sneaky and spontaneous with waking him up with sex yesterday morning.  Here is an excerpt from my personal blog to share how my morning went.  Beware of the strong language:

Last night I told The Hubs to make sure the alarm is set early enough for us to have sex in the morning.  I didn't tell him that it was doctor's orders...I just made it sound all exciting and stuff.  I even used the words "do you want to wake up with your dick in my mouth" lmfao  We had this discussion about how he will need to pee first.

I never hear his alarm clock...I usually wake up when he gets out of bed.  So at 5:43 he gets out of bed.  I remember looking at the clock and thinking wtf he has to be at work at 6.  I hear him in the bathroom so I'm like oh, its ok he's just going pee and then he'll come back in.  Then he lets the dogs out and then he goes to smoke.  WTF I am still at this point thinking ok I know he wouldn't forget our plans.

....and then he starts to put his shoes on and shit hits the fan.

"What about having sex this morning"

"I'm already late for work.  You were suppose to wake me up"

"You know I never hear the alarm! I was waiting on you to go pee!!"

I was on the verge of tears at this point

"What is the big fucking deal?!?

"We HAVE to have sex ok?! We just fucking have to and I wasn't going to tell you.  I was trying to be sneaky but apparently you didn't want to fulfill my needs very badly did you?!

"What do you mean?! What are you talking about"

At this point I'm bawling on the bed and explaining to him the situation.  He's just staring at me like omfg you can't be serious.  He gets on the phone and calls in late to work

Pretty dramatic huh? We are suppose to have sex again before the appointment next week.  I have chosen to just tell him this time to avoid all the drama and tears.

I should probably tell you that fraternal twins run in my family.  My dad is a twin and my great uncles were twins.  The fraternal twin gene is the hereditary one..not identical.  With the use of Clomid, HCG and my family history, I have a pretty high chance of multiples.....well, if the medicine works and my body would cooperate. 

I'll try to be better about posting after my appointment next week :)

CD23.2 ~ Doc Appointment

I guess I was mistaken last month.  Last month I did not produce a follicle like I thought.  There were some small ones, but not big enough ones.  This month I did not ovulate or produce large follicle, just like last month.  The Provera with Actos alone isn't working for me.

This month I will continue on Actos, another week of Provera and then CD5 I'll start Clomid.  I also should be expecting a phone call from a pharmacy to take my insurance information for HCG.  I don't know a whole lot about HCG.  I need to google it and freak myself out. haha

I'm a little disappointed with the outcome of this month, but not surprised.  I knew I didn't ovulate because my temps were flat and my boobs never started hurting.   I'm not even going to post my temps from this month because they're so boring.  They basically stayed between 97.2 and 97.6.

The Hubs and I have had horrible luck the last few months so I just keep telling myself something good has to come soon....maybe that something good will be pregnancy!

Wasted Month

AF has just about left the building.  I was just figuring out about when ovulation would be occurring this month...and guess what? The Hubs will be out of town that week! He's going to visit his family in Maryland May 25-30.

Our luck has been just awful lately in every aspect of life.  Something good for us has to be right around the corner.

CD1.2

AF arrived today and not on a good day.  I called the doc to set up a CD22 appointment but the office is already closed.

My hips and abdomen are killing me and I have way too much crap to do today and tomorrow. Tomorrow is moving day! A lot of drama has come along today but that's not what this blog is about :)

Have a great weekend!

Provera post day 4

Ugh, my hips are killing me.  AF has to be coming soon.  Also, TMI, but I've had wet farts.  Not like stuff coming out, just wet. LOL Yeah, I'm gross but this always happens soon before AF comes to town.

This is moving weekend so I'm really hoping AF holds off until at least Sunday.

Provera post day 1

I took my last "hot pill" last night.  I've been sweating non stop since taking them.  Hopefully this is the last day of the sweat.
I've been a little irritable but I don't know whether to blame the hot pill or stress.  We have way too much going on this month but the to-do list is slowly getting shorter.  Hopefully by June 1 everything will be back to normal.

Wonder how many days I'll have to wait for a period?  Any bets?

Provera Day 2

I just took my 2nd of 7 Provera pill.  I've been HOT, like sweaty hot all day.  I'm not sure if its because the temperature outside has warmed up or if it's from the pills.  My boobs are killing me too.  I don't remember this happening last month when I took it, especially this early.

I've stopped charting temperatures until Auntie Flo comes to town.  I didn't see a need since I know I'm not pregnant and won't have a period until after the pills.

Those damn temps better be better next month.

CD23~ Doc Appointment

I had a quick visit to see the doctor. Like I predicted, I did not ovulate in April but I did make follicles...makes sense? Nope.
He said that it was strange for that to happen on the 1st cycle of Provera.  So I must be a freak.
I'm doing another round of Provera this month.  If that doesn't work, then on to Clomid.  I may tell him that I want Femara instead of Clomid.  Would that be insulting to him?
Anyway, I'm off to the pharmacy and to wash my car.

CD22

My doctor's appointment is tomorrow and look at this crappy graph I have to present to him:

I mean, seriously, is that the most messed up thing you've ever seen?!


I don't think I ovulated on CD12 like I thought because of the three dips in temperature...unless I'm completely reading it wrong.  Look at that huge spike and huge drop back down on CD16! haha


I have to wake up at 7:30 tomorrow.  I've not been up that early in a long time.  I may be napping afterwards.


In other news, we sold our house! We'll be closing and moving into a rental in 2 weeks.  We'll be in the rental for 7 months then transferring out in December.  Get this....the girl who bought it..she's 8 months pregnant! 


Hope you all had a great weekend and I'll post tomorrow with information about my appointment.

CD17

I've been feeling funky today and yesterday.  I'm blaming it on ovulation though.  Yesterday and today I've felt like I just did a bunch of sit ups.  Yesterday, I guess you can classify it as my ovaries were hurting? I had kind of a jabbing pain just inside of my hip bone.  Today I'm feeling a little nauseous, no appetite and a slight headache.  I'm been a little more tired than normal but it's not a "omg I have to go to sleep right now" kind of feeling. 

This morning my temperature took a huge spike, more than it normally does at this time.  It went from a 97.2 to a 98.8.  I even retook it thinking that maybe I was just too hot under the covers! haha  I know a temperature increase signals the end of ovulation but it was just strange it went up so high. 

I've been listening to two songs over and over again crying like a big baby! The first is Adele's version of Make You Feel My Love.  She does an amazing job of Bob Dylan's song.  It's beautiful, soulful and moving...I love it.  The second is Then by Brad Paisley.  Also, I watched One Tree Hill tonight and cried through most of it...although that show always makes me cry.

My next doc appointment is Monday.  The last few days I've been imaging going in and him doing an ultrasound and mucus check and saying "you're pregnant!".  Then I go into thoughts about how I will tell the Hub and who I will call first. I really need to just stop with those thoughts.  I know I just set myself up for disappointment. 

I have to start focusing on the positive and believe in every little milestone.  According to my temps, it looks like I ovulated this month on just Actos.  That's a positive thing! Also, the Hub's sperm analysis came back and it's completely normal.  That's a positive thing!

Unless I have crazy symptoms this week to post about, I probably won't update again until after my appointment Monday.  Have a great week!

CD13

Well I think I ovulated yesterday.  My temp took a huge drop and went back up today. I never could get a positive ovulation test though.  I guess the doctor will be able to tell when I see him May 3rd.  We had sexy time the day before yesterday and last night.

This morning I woke up not feeling well.  It could be anxiety and stress though.  We're in the middle of selling our house and finding a rental and my husband is up for orders to transfer across the country so we're in the middle of figuring out where we'll be moving to in December.  I'm a little behind in my work and have no motivation to do it so that has been weighing on my mind as well.

Besides...people don't feel sick that soon anyway right?!

CD9 part 2

The last CD9 post was posted around midnight last night and I still had some spotting going on.  Great news! It's now 1:30pm and I've had no spotting since I've woken up.  Wow..this is the first time I've not had stuff coming out in over a month.  It feels a little awkward to not be concerned I'm walking around with a stain on my butt! This means we can get our groove thang on without any objections!
My temperature was back to normal this morning.  It makes me wonder if I had those few days of crazy temperatures because I was stressing about the HSG and wasn't getting very restful sleep. 
We should be getting the Hub's latest sperm analysis results this week.  I'm not concerned that it will come back abnormal but it would be nice to not hold 100% of the blame for infertility.  I'm mean right? :)

CD9

I am three days post HSG and I'm still spotting.  It mostly only comes out when I pee though.  The doctor instructed me to not have sex until all spotting has stopped, but ovulation time is coming up! Hopefully it stops by then!
Although, my temperatures all over the place.  The plan is to see if Actos is going to make me ovulate this month but according to my temperatures it's not looking good.
All the pain from the HSG is gone...I think.  I feel "different" but it could be because ovulation is coming up. 

HSG

It's my CD6 and I had an HSG this afternoon.

I'm not going to sugar coat it....it hurt like total hell.  Here's what happened

I arrive and get registered and everything.  The nurse takes me back to a typical looking x-ray room where I changed into a gown but only had to get undressed from the waste down.  The radiology tech took a quick preliminary x-ray before the doctor arrived.  A few minutes later the doctor arrived and we chatted a little bit about how I was doing w/ my meds and stuff.  At that point he positioned me at the end of this awful cold hard steel bed.  I had my feet propped up on the edge of the table so that it was similar to being in stirrups.  He injected something into my cervix and that's where the pain began.  It felt like getting shots into your gums when you're about to get a filling.  Those were done three times then he swabbed my cervix with antiseptic and with medication to help prevent infection.  That felt similar to getting a pap smear.  When he enter the catheter used to insert the dye, it burned and stung a little.  At this point, I had to scoot up on the table so that I was under the x-ray machine with the speculum and catheter still inside...that was a little awkward.  He put some of the dye into my uterus and then I had to semi-turn to the right and he put more dye in and then I turned to my left where more dye went it.  When I was facing the right...it hurt horribly.  I was almost in tears but I held it back and kept taking deep breaths.  It was a sharp, cramping, throbbing, burning kind of pain.  I was told by people who've had the procedure that it feels like menstrual cramps..but that is a huge lie.  It is WAY worse than that.  Then the doctor pulled the catheter and speculum out which wasn't bad because my focus was on the pain in my uterus area.  The dye was pouring out of me.  I felt like I was peeing on the table.  Driving home I felt great and about an hour later I started having mild pain.  You know that dull ache you get when you leave a tampon in too long? That's what I felt like.  I'm 9 hours post procedure and I'm feeling pretty good.  I really only had dye leakage for about 4 hours afterwards and it wasn't anything a pantiliner couldn't handle. 

Last night I took 600mg of ibuprofen, at 7am this morning I took 800mg and another 800mg about an hour before the HSG was done.  I also ate a decent lunch 6in turkey from Subway.  This is what I was instructed to do by the doctor and I really think it helped a lot. 

The positive is that the procedure was super quick.  Also, I had no blockage or abnormalities.  Hopefully the dye "cleaned out the cobwebs" and I get pregnant soon!  The funny thing....my left fallopian tube is curled! It has one loop right in the middle.  Doc assured me that it's normal and doenst cause problems but to me it seems like it would make it harder for the little guys to get to the egg.  I need to google it and see just how loopy I am compared to the rest of the world :)

I plan to buy some ovulation tests this weekend and start testing.  I'm curious to know if I am going to ovulate with just taking Actos.

Was the HSG as bad as I planned it in my head? Yes, most definitely and I hope I never have to go through that again!

Introduction!

Hello Everyone!  First of all, thank you advance for all of your support, love, prayers and compassion.  As you may know, it means a lot to fellow PCOSers trying to start a family.

I am a 27 year old military wife.  I met my husband in July 2007, got engaged November 2008 and married September 2009. 

In March 2008, the Hub and I started talking about the fact that we've never used birth control and what if I was to get pregnant?  Are we ready for a child? Do we want to try to have a child?  The answer was yes. We knew were were going to be married at some point so why wait?  Taking into consideration that I've my monthly aunt Ruby Flo hadn't come to town in several months, I decided I should probably see a doctor about it. 

April 2008 I was officially diagnosed with PCOS by blood work and transvaginal ultrasound.  When my doctor was delivering this news to me, it didn't really affect me because I had no clue what it was.  I've never heard of it before.  I was under the impression it was something that I would just take some medicine for and be done with it.  That evening I researched the awful "disease" and sat at my laptop in shock.  Does this mean I'm infertile? Does this mean I will never have a child of my own? How in the world are we suppose to avoid infertility treatment?

My PCP started me on Metformin 1000mg per day.  It made me super sick but I kept taking it because I thought it was the only way.  After 3 weeks of complete misery, I was told that I could cut the pills in half and take them sporadically throughout the day to see if I could tolerate them better.  No such luck.  I never grew a tolerance to the Metformin and suffered through it for several months even after it was regulating my cycle.

I had my first appointment with a reproductive endocrinologist in April 2009.  He started me on Prometrium to jump start my cycle then I took Clomid 50mg on cycle days 5-9.  I was a raging ball of hormones! Wow was I mean and I'm surprised I wasn't served divorced papers! I also did another round of Clomid in May. By this time I was in full wedding planning mode, stressed out to the max and decided it was a waste of time and money to undergo fertility during those months.  In July 2009 the Hub had a sperm analysis that had normal results.

I went back to the RE in November 2009 and we again did a Clomid cycle with no results.  Clomid made my temperatures good and showed that I ovulated but I could never get an ovulation test to read positive.  Every month that I had went in to see this physician, I felt like he wasn't listening to me and when I would ask him about taking a different medicine than Metformin, he would tell me "I'm not here to make you miserable.  I'm here to get you pregnant".  I've specifically asked him about Actos and Femara and got run-around answers.  Also, by this time my insurance, BCBS stopped paying for the ultrasounds because I had been diagnosed (insurance only covered it until I was diagnosed).  When I walked out of my November appointment with the RE I was charged $200 and decided there was no way in hell we could afford to pay that every month, especially since I was on the verge of quitting my job.

March 2010 rolls around and I began coverage under Tricare Prime and was due for pap smear. I made an appointment with a base doctor who referred me to a fertility doctor who accepts Tricare.  It actually worked out perfectly because it was a physician I had wanted to be referred to. 

My first appointment with the new doctor was April 1, 2010.  He and all of the office staff was amazing.  He asked lots of questions and did lots more tests than the previous doctor did.  He told me the game plan for the upcoming few months and I left his office feeling much more confident that I ever had with the previous physician.  He gave me a prescription for Actos 15mg daily and Provera 10mg x7 days and instructed me to start charting my temperatures. 

April 11 was CD1.  I've been scheduled for an HSG on April 16 but I'm still having lots of bleeding.  Hopefully it stops by Friday and I won't have to reschedule the HSG.  Also, the Hub will be dropping off a sperm sample Friday to test for strict morphology as that wasn't done last year.  He's quite excited about cumming in a cup again :)

I will be returning to the doctor on CD22 to have my progesterone tested and to go over the sperm analysis. 

Now that you've been completely updated, I hope you follow along on my journey.  I'm praying it's a short one.

I'm quite nervous about the HSG.  I've heard mixed feelings about it so we'll see.  I'll post after the procedure.